Thank You - Sue

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Thank you Sue to give me a good interpretation on my love life, my dark side, my problems on dealing with the love relationship. As she said, I knew but I didn't move on to solve this 'problem'. I am clear of what I should do, how to do it and my needs but that is not good enough. The key point is ......... I reject or reluctant to solve it. My problem is

1. don't let go (know the ending but still struggle to maintain the past relationship)
2. afraid of getting lose (no win or lose in love world, how come i forgot it .. i did know after broke up with jack)
3. reluctant or delay to solve the problem (that's the key point)

The card reading is a way to let me learning more about myself. Different card has different story. I do remember one of my cards show a story related to my thinking

"2 monks are crossing the river, a woman needs their help so that one of them carries a lady at his back to cross the river (that is, he touches the lady :P). After the monks went back to the temple, the one who didn't carry the woman make a complaint to the Master that his fellow carried a woman across the river, the key point is 'he touches her !". That's not the right action to a monk. When his fellow listen his complaint, he just replied "this issue is over coz' the woman is gone and we are in the temple now. Why you still remember this? It is finished and gone."

That's the card to describe myself in the love relationship.

Besides, my dark side makes me hard to start a love relationship. Others (new comers) may think that:

- I m protective (True, I am afraid of making friends with stranger sometimes... hard to believe)
- I m not easy to understand (hm .. i think i know the reason...)
- I need a result all the time (?!!, marriage? oh come' on, kidding me)
- I behave different after fall for this guy (?!!, maybe, just become ......... more soft)
- I m picky (?!! if i m picky, i guess, i m attracted by someone who can share similar interests and thinking with me, i know, it is not easy to get it in HK society..... )

Then ... why others interest in me ? Key point is

My personality (hm ... maybe, a bit different with 'typical HK gal', always catch rare thinking in others' eyes. Simply speaking, they found that this lady is interesting)
Man will not have -ve feeling on me, most of them are willing to know more about me

But the consequence is .. maybe boys feel that they need an ordinary girlfriend after they come with me together. (No wonder, all my boyfriends got a 'unique' character, otherwise, hard to get along with me :P)

Anyway, I m blessing to the one I loved before (not many, but i did have a happy time with them). Right now, I will move forward. That is.

P.S. If you have time, read this. That's one of Sue's card reading story, I feel so touching after I read it ...... )

Sue's contact no: 82360294 (just tell her that you are referred by 'Jessica'). That is.