Can't forget, still remember, becoz' today is your birthday.
Sounds strange that why I didn't pick up your call (I remember that you called me 4 times then no further calls anymore). I think you may know the reason as you are so smart and sensitive on this issue.
It is not easy to make such decision but I think it is what I should do right now. I have been struggling on this relationship for over a year. I would like the one I love to live happily, that's why I try very best to cheer you up all the time. That's what I love to see and feel when you are happy. Irony, I can feel that you are happy when hanging around with your SP and other girls. If this is what you love, I know I should leave. It is hard for me to live with it. The best thing i should do is trying to free myself and let you being happy with other girls.
I will never forget what you did to me during the time I suffered alot in 2004. Too bad that I do feel so hard when the feeling is getting stronger and we becomes very close in this year. It is hard for me to keep going out with you but listening your side stories with other 'female friends' (all without a proper name but only name it as friends, I was confused before as even a friend's name, couldn't mention it and share with each other?! but when I look back now, I can't stop my laugh ... hahha. donno why, maybe i m the one without a proper name either :P)
Maybe you will ask me, why I love you. Even do I wonder why I can keep the love feeling that long :P Finally ...... during the time I left myself alone, I understand that ......you make me feel so happy coz' you can do many crazy things with me, you let me to be myself, you can cheer me up all the time (dont count the time you told me the "Story with Yr FriendS"), when I got a problem in personal life or work, you never push me to listen your ideas but give me a valuable suggestion, you always be patient to stay with me when i am in a trouble, ...... you are good to the elderly. The smart jokes we make, the stupid things we did, always shopping around ... seems you love shopping even more than me ... my goodness, the way you acted like a woman in my eyes........... all these happy memories, which makes me to know that why I love you. But ........... I should stop it now. Since the time I felt so unhappy when I looked at your SP's toothbrush in your toilet, I know .......... that's illusion and should stop all the things now.
Maybe ............. in a day, we can be a friend again. But ....... i know, it takes time.
No matter what, you are one of my best friends and do wish you happy forever.
Happy 32 years old birthday, my dear.
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